A few weeks ago our Sunday sermon was about being authentic. It hit home with me. I’m just going to be real with you here. I tend to fall on the side of the religious Pharisee. I like the rules. Now, true that doesn’t always mean I follow them or I may get to the same end result my own way, but I like to know what they are. And when I hit those goals/rules you can bet everyone around me knows just how great I am. I want to “make it” on my own. I want to believe that I don’t need help and can do it all on my own.
Here’s how it goes. I think I’m doing great. I’ve got this thing down. Oh, I try to be humble about it, but it’s so hard to be humble when you’re perfect and everyone else is so jacked up. *Note the sarcasm here.* Praise the Lord he then gives me a good dose of reality! It can be a sermon to remind me to check myself or sometimes it’s just life. Yahweh is so good to me! He loves me enough to show me that I cannot keep all the rules on my own. He reminds me that I NEED his one and only son. He reminds me that this life isn’t meant to be lived alone, but with other believers. I don’t have it all together and I never will!
So, this post was originally going to be about our family eating nothing but crappy foods lately and how to get back to eating better. How does that have anything to do with what I just wrote and how did it change? My best guess is that eating whole foods is an idealist Pharisee thing for me. I give myself such a hard time and feel like a complete failure as a mother because we’ve had frozen pizzas and donuts. I hate to admit it, but I look at and treat mamas who feed their families organic/whole foods differently than I do those who don’t. James 2 talks about showing partiality and how it is a sin. Ouch!
Now, I definitely want to feed our family more healthfully, but I do not want to become legalistic with it. There has to be a balance. I need to get back into the swing of making meal plans, eating good wholesome foods, and yet give myself mercy to say, “Let’s get a pizza.” How about you? What do you tend to be a Pharisee about?
So, it’s been about a month since I last posted. There’s been some amazing break through and changes since then! The week after I posted I had a horrible week. My sugar cravings came in something fierce and I caved to them. Possibly because of that I had 4 or 5 days where I was in so much pain physically I stayed in bed or on the couch as much as possible. I had a migraine for 3 of those days as well. After this experience I decided to try a nutrition supplement my friend Marri had been encouraging me to try.
I am so grateful that the LORD placed it on Marri’s heart to share Plexus with me, but I wish it I would have begun taking it back when she first mentioned it to me months ago! I have been taking it for 3 weeks tomorrow. It has been helping me tremendously. I’m not 100%, but I don’t expect that anytime soon. It took me years to get to this point and it won’t and shouldn’t take only a few weeks to get back. If you recall back in April I spoke about all the problems I’ve been having and how I was on the hunt for change. Here’s the list I made up then with some updates in red:
- I have suffered from depression and anxiety for the past few years, but this year has been the worst. I have been on an as needed medication for anxiety since Sam was born in March 2015. The past few months things have gotten worse. I have had anxiety attacks multiple times a week. I have not had an anxiety attack since I began the supplement!! That, my friends, is HUGE. We’ve had a lot of busy days and issues that would have caused me to have one in the past. Seriously, this past Monday I blew a tire, couldn’t get it changed, called Scott (who had to borrow a coworker’s car to get to me), had to buy new tires because the steel wall was showing on BOTH front tires, and our van’s break line broke!
- I have no energy and sleep all the time. I have had multiple times a week where I go to sleep at 7 or 8 pm and don’t wake up until 8 am or later if it’s a weekend AND still take a nap with Sam. I can make it until 9 pm now and I don’t take naps most days! I have had a few days where I’ve taken naps, but it is no longer a required daily occurrence. I also feel refreshed in the mornings now and not dragging.
- Then on the opposite end of that I will have horrible insomnia some nights and not go to bed until 3 or 4 am, if at all. I haven’t had problems with this for the past 2 weeks. I’ve been making it a point to just go to bed by 10ish. One thing I have noticed is it’s not taking me as long to fall asleep, which is really nice.
- I have been forgetting things. I’m not talking, “Where are my keys?” forgetful. I would be in a conversation and completely forget a simple word multiple times a day! I haven’t noticed a change in this yet. I’m still really forgetful.
- I have pain in my muscles and joints, so bad that I have been taking ibuprofen multiple times a week. Are you ready for this?!? I HAVEN’T TAKEN PAIN MEDICATION FOR MY JOINTS SINCE MONDAY THE 9TH!!! It isn’t completely gone, but it is bearable now. One thing I noticed is I’m now walking up and down the stairs like a normal person and not avoiding them. Before I would take one step at a time with both feet instead of going from one to the next.
- My skin has been doing weird things like crazy painful acne and dark patches. I haven’t noticed a change in this yet.
- My ADHD symptoms have been worse than normal. So much so I have considered going to get prescription medication for it, but I’m stubborn and hate taking it. I haven’t noticed huge changes in this. It is better in that I feel like I can focus a bit easier though.
- I have migraines once or twice a month. I haven’t had one in over 2 weeks! WOOHOO!!
So all that to say I’m really excited to continue this journey and see where it takes me! Your prayers would be appreciated because we have some big changes happening in our lives soon. Right now we’re not “announcing” them, but I’ll let you know about those changes as they happen. Thanks for following my journey, everyone! Please comment and let me know how you’re doing. Are there natural things that have helped you with the up above problems you’d like to share with me? I’m all ears! Until next time, friends.
The lovely Marri and I at the beach last month. It’s not fair that she looks this good at 32 weeks pregnant!
Yesterday I was speaking to my good friend Marri about making changes for our health. She had asked how things are going with me. Then, we got to talking about how when we’re pregnant and need to make changes for the health of our babies it has come so much easier to us. An example, when I was pregnant with Sam I was told I was on the cusp of gestational diabetes. Because of that I seriously gave up everything that had sugar. When that didn’t help as much as we wanted to see I gave up all pastas and other high glycemic foods. It came so much easier to me then. Why? Was it the idea of this little being that was completely dependent upon me making good choices for his health sake? I think so. It was all about that baby boy. Why can’t I do that now though? I still have these amazing little loves depending upon me for their life and making good choices for OUR health. I just wish I could get that in my brain. If any of you have the secret to doing so could you help a sista out and spill the beans?
I do feel like I’m making a little progress in the sugar arena. I used to drink sodas often, coffee with creamer multiple times a day, desserts almost daily, and a lot of white breads and pastas. So far this week I have eaten mostly whole grains and WAY less sugar. I did have ice cream twice with the family, but I refuse to limit treats like that to never. After having celiac and being on such a strict diet for that, and then the LORD healing us I will not do a strict diet, unless medically necessary. Moderation is my friend. I also want to do something that I can keep long term and no sugar ever isn’t that.
My ADHD has been a bit worse. I’m thinking that is probably partly due to the fact that I have been doing horribly at getting to bed at a decent time and I’ve been waking up before 7 a.m. everyday. I know some of you are like, “Ha! I wish!” But for this homeschooling mama that is early. We are night owls in this family and don’t typically wake up until 8:30 or even 9 a.m. if we don’t have somewhere to be that day. It’s one of the many perks of homeschooling. (If you are interested in homeschooling or need a community/support system as a homeschooling parent send me a message and let’s talk!) I have noticed that when I get more sleep everything else seems to go better. I have to make this a priority.
And then there’s the fact that maybe I need to be giving myself grace here in this change. It took me years to dig this hole I’m in, and it may very well take years to build the ladder to climb out. I don’t like to think about that. I want to do something tonight and feel my best tomorrow morning. I don’t want to think about the mistakes I’ll make along this journey. But you know what? In the journey I will gain wisdom and grow closer to the LORD. That is worth it in the end. In the wise words of Dory, “Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming.” Here’s to the journey!
Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.
James 1: 2-4
Many of you don’t know this because, let’s be real, I hide it from most people. I don’t like to be looked at as weak. I like to be the strong one. But all that being said I’m coming clean.
- I have suffered from depression and anxiety for the past few years, but this year has been the worst. I have been on an as needed medication for anxiety since Sam was born in March 2015. The past few months things have gotten worse. I have had anxiety attacks multiple times a week.
- I have no energy and sleep all the time. I have had multiple times a week where I go to sleep at 7 or 8 pm and don’t wake up until 8 am or later if it’s a weekend AND still take a nap with Sam.
- Then on the opposite end of that I will have horrible insomnia some nights and not go to bed until 3 or 4 am, if at all.
- I have been forgetting things. I’m not talking, “Where are my keys?” forgetful. I would be in a conversation and completely forget a simple word multiple times a day!
- I have pain in my muscles and joints, so bad that I have been taking ibuprofen multiple times a week.
- My skin has been doing weird things like crazy painful acne and dark patches.
- My ADHD symptoms have been worse than normal. So much so I have considered going to get prescription medication for it, but I’m stubborn and hate taking it.
- I have migraines once or twice a month.
Right about now you are probably asking, “Why is she telling me all this?” Well, surely I cannot be the only one suffering from these problems and I’m beginning the journey to be healthy again. I want to document it and maybe some of the changes I’m making will help someone else too. It has been hard, but the Lord has grown me so much in this time and pulled me near to Him. He has show me grace and love. He has shown me that it is okay to grieve and miss RHC and our family there. He has reminded me that He has a plan for our lives and His plan is perfect! I want others to have that same hope too.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
-2 Corinthians 12:9-10
Here are a few changes I have made since it was brought to my attention that I probably had adrenal fatigue.
*Cut back on responsibilities. I set time limits on these because I know myself, and I know I need a goal date or I’ll get back into things too early.
*No more coffee on a regular basis. This has been the hardest thing! I used to drink it all day long. Seriously, I should have been a Gilmore.
*Reading my Bible more.
*Using essential oils.
Since making these changes I have had some good results. I still have problems with insomnia and going to bed early, but it’s better. I don’t typically have to take a nap during the day and I can make it until 9 or 10 pm now! And my anxiety has lessened. The next change I want to make is another dietary change, cutting back on sugar.
Apparently it’s been three years since I’ve posted anything! Wow, a lot has changed in that time frame. It was suggested that I start blogging again so here I am. Now, let’s talk about about what has happened in the past three years.
We moved two times, within the Indianapolis area. We continued homeschooling. Scott and I celebrated our 10th wedding anniversary.
We found out we were pregnant a week later, then found it it was a girl, found out at 37 weeks it was actually a boy(!!), and had this precious guy in March of 2015.
After having Sam we moved from Indianapolis back to Missouri, which meant many changes. There has been a lot to process, especially in the past year, but the LORD is amazing. He has been here guiding our steps and leading us to exactly where He wants us to be. This was our family at Sam’s first birthday last month (sweaty boys and all, real life!).
Happy, crazy, full of life, and loving Jesus! On to our future adventures we go!
Goals. How are you at setting goals for yourself? I will admit I kind of suck at it. When I do make goals I set them so high they’re unattainable. Oh, I think they’re perfect when I make them, but then reality sets in and they never get done. Usually the reason I don’t hit the mark is because I set too many goals for myself to complete at one time and I don’t pray about them. I rely on my own strength to make those goals. Well, it’s time to do it differently. As I stated in my last post I want to use this blog to become a better homemaker, wife, and mother. With that being said I’m going to make one goal a week for the next 6 weeks starting on Mondays.
Week 1 starts on 7/29/2013: Read my bible daily. This is something I feel is very, very important, and yet I find it hard to achieve.
Week 2 starts on 8/5/2013: Exercising 15 minutes 6 times a week.
Week 3 starts on 8/12/2013: Organize our home school area and schedule.
Week 4 starts on 8/19/2013: Finish a quilt.
Week 5 starts on 8/26/2013: Start a scripture memory plan with the boys.
Week 6 starts on 9/2/2013: Decorate the kitchen.
Will you join me for these next six weeks in completing goals? Write a blog post with your goals and leave a comment here with the link so I can come along and encourage you too!
Well, I fell off the blogging wagon a few months ago. It happened slowly. For a while there I was hanging on with one hand running beside it by posting meal plans and then ker-plunk! To ground I went.
Well, I’m ready to climb back on and try again now. It’s time to get back to what this blog was originally planned to be. Now, come join me in the adventures of my life as an obsolete homemaker who loves Christ. My goal is that I’ll discover how to be a better help mate to my husband, parent to our children, and how to eat natural real foods on a budget while seeking Yahweh through it all.
I really, really want to be one of those women who plan out meals for the week and stick to it. I admire Laura over at Heavenly Homemakers for that. I try, oh, how I try. I’ll have the plan and put it on my fridge only to forget to take something out of the freezer or get distracted by something else. I really want to make our meals throughout the day more balanced with each other and I know planning is the best way to do so. So, that being said I’m going to try again. Prayers and tips would be much appreciated.
Monday, April 22
Grilled chicken salad
Tuesday, April 23
Homemade granola and fruit Pizza
Hamburgers, homemade fries, salad
Wednesday, April 24
French toast, fruit
Quesadillas and veggies
Pulled pork sandwiches, greenbeans, fried potatoes
Thursday, April 25
Chocolate chip pancakes and fruit
PB&Js and veggies
City Group – we’ll be taking ham
Friday, April 26
Breakfast cookies, fruit
Chicken fried rice
Saturday, April 27
Sunday, April 28
Cereal and fruit
Veal stir fry Crockpot chicken, mashed potatoes, green beans
What’s on your menu plan for this week? Need some ideas? Check out Organized Junkie for the Meal Plan Monday link up. Do you see something you’d like to try on mine but there isn’t a recipe linked? Let me know and I’ll get a recipe online for you.
I realized that when I don’t plan our dinners by day I do not prepare for it and turn to quick foods which were not on my original list. It definitely didn’t save us money, if anything caused us to use more. Back to the original way I did things.
Monday – Tacos
Tuesday – Spaghetti
Wednesday – Tuna casserole
Thursday – Sandwiches
Friday – BBQ pork steaks, mac & cheese, veggies
Saturday – Scott and I will be gone.
Sunday – Baked chicken and veggies
What’s on your menu plan for this week? Do you see something you’d like to try on mine but there isn’t a recipe linked? Let me know and I’ll get a recipe online for you.
My friend recently asked me for the recipe for our pancakes. Here it is, Stephanie!
2 cups flour (I have used rice flour to make them gluten free with great success)
1 t. baking soda
1 t. sea salt
2 cup milk
6 T. melted butter
1 bag of Ghirardelli Bittersweet Chocolate Chips
Mix together dry ingredients. Stir in the egg, melted butter, baking soda and salt. Whisk together, adding extra milk for the desired batter thickness you prefer (I only need to add extra when I use rice flour). Gently stir in chocolate chips last.
Cook pancakes on a well buttered, hot skillet or griddle, flipping once bubbles begin to form.
This recipe was adapted from one of my favorite websites, Heavenly Homemakers. She has them listed as Simple Soaked Pancakes and soaks them. I don’t typically soak mine because honestly I forget to. Make sure you go over and check out her site. She has a ton of great recipes and tips!